sojourner

I cannot rest from travel: I will drink
Life to the lees: all times I have enjoyed
Greatly, have suffered greatly, both with those
That loved me, and alone

...Ulysses . . .Tennyson

I love horizons. I love conquering them and then searching for new ones. I get restless fast. I like challenging myself to do things I've never done before. I want to be a gourmet chef, an airline pilot, a drummer in a semi famous band, a monk, a published author, a shrimpin boat captain, a breakdancer, a parkourer (parkourist?).

I want to marry the most beautiful woman in the world and wake up beside her every morning, yearning for another adventure. I want her deep laugh to mix with mine daily, to not let a day go by without holding her hand on a walk around the block or wherever, really; I want to make 3 or 4 babies with her, and spend a good deal of time practicing it; I want those dear little kiddies to roll around in the grass with me, let me sweep them up in my arms when I come home from work and be content to sit outside and watch the stars dance in the summer sky and basically never grow up even if they get older.

I want to always be enchanted when I look in her eyes. I kind of think I will be.

I want to spend every day in full expectancy of the very best God has to offer, even if and when it takes the form of what I would think is the very worst that life could have. I want to always be alert for opportunities to be an angel in disguise, to do the little things that stick out in peoples minds when they wonder if God exists or not . . . "if God doesn't exist and isn't good, what about that angel who pushed my car out of the snow when everyone else downtown was walking by?" (true story - happened today. Next time I will wear gloves).

I want to always be amazed by God. I kind of think I will be. I want to fall more and more in love with Him, that rapturous love that makes fireworks into sparks and turns every little detail into an exquisite work of art, makes it so that ordinary is a word I no longer know.

I want to never feel like I have settled. Ever. For anything.

I want to bathe in solitude, drink deeply from that peace that comes from knowing your own soul well, and not only liking but enjoying, loving, and cherishing what you find there. I want to always embrace alone times, times of still when I know He is God. I want to be able to do this on the side of a mountain, as my eyes drift off to my nocturnal date with Morpheus, as I walk in a crowd.

I want to always travel, even if I never leave my house.